its almost here

As my time to leave draws near, I am filled with excitement. Yet at the same time I am so nervous. My mind is filled with thoughts of antisipation as I'm still not 100% sure what to expect yet. I am so excited for the things the Lord is going to do in me though while I am there. I want to be used by Him, and I desire my life to be completely for His glory, not my own. I'm not sure I could ever do this without Him guiding me and carrying me every step of the way. I look forward to the challenges I face ahead, as well as just being in this new season of my life.

I have a few things that I desire to see happen in my life while I am there. One thing I desire is to rest in the Lord completely in who I am and what He wants me to do with my life. Deut. 33:12 says, "Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in him, for he shields him all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between his shoulders." and Psalm 46:10 says, "Be still, and know that I am God..." I desire to take these 2 verses and live them out completely in my life. I think this is the season I am in. To rest secure in the Lord. To be still and know He is God. To stop striving to become better, to stop trying so hard. I think when I stop and rest in the Lord, when I stand still before the Lord, I will truly see God. I will learn His heart. Learn who He is. And I think that that is when I will become the person I desire to be. Not in striving, but in looking to God. So that is one thing I desire not only for my time in Guatemala but for my year, and furthermore for my life.
I also desire that God would be glorified in all my actions. I desire to love people the way Jesus loved. I desire to serve. And I desire that I would put others first.

I leave in 6 days. I ask that you would pray for me. For my time in Guatemala. For the children of NLCH. That I could love them like Jesus. That my life would portray Jesus to them. That their hearts would be filled with hope and love.

The next time I write I will be in Guatemala. :)