i think that i am probably the most inconsistent blogger in the entire world! sorry!!! but I'm feeling a bit inspired right now. had some guatemalan coffee earlier so i cant really sleep, so what if i work at 6 tomorrow mornings. ha whatever. Also feelin a little inspired after reading through sophie's blog tonight. :) thanks soph!

Can't believe that in 4 short days I will returning to Guatemala to see all the people that I love so dearly down there at the children's home. :) I will try to keep all of you updated on how its going and what God's teaching me while I'm there...but we all know how i am at that.

Jesus has just been teachin me so much I don't even know where to start! um ok I guess the huge thing that God has been teaching me right now is JOY. Even when times get tough I can still have joy in Christ. Everywhere I go recently, it seams they are teaching on joy. church, sunday school, awe service, new grounds, reconnect...The Lord just keeps bringing me to the book of Philippians. My pastor gave a good definition for joy at church the other week- a peace, a confidence, trusting God in times of struggle. I love that joy isnt about being happy because reality is we aren't gonna be happy all the time. I can't control my circumstances, but I can trust God that he has a plan and find joy in that. Another thing that should bring us joy is to know that Jesus overcame...our sins, our mistakes, our failures, our past, our hurt...He has overcome them all...and given victory in times of trouble. Overcoming these feelings may not always look the way we expect them to but God will always come through.  He is there to give peace, to give joy, in the midst of those hard times.

      " I will not fear the war
        I will not fear the storm
        My help is on the way
        My help is on the way

        Oh my God He will not delay
        My refuge and strength always
        I will not fear His promise is true
        My God will come through always, always."