The battle within

This morning I was reading "experiencing the presence of God" by A. W. Tozer and it made me think about the battle we have within ourselves. In the book at one point he talks about how all of creation makes up what we know as the universe and how "uni" comes from the word one. Meaning everything was created in unity and interdependent and related. And created to be under a head, a ruler, God, on His throne.

But man revolted against this head and decided he wanted to rule himself, so Adam and Eve ate the fruit, bringing this tension into the world and placing in each of us the desire to rule ourselves and be in control. Then years later we see the nation of Israel do this again, on a larger scale, when they decide they don't want to be ruled by God, but want a king like other nations. 

Many times we read either of these stories and think, "silly Adam and Eve, or silly Israel, don't you realize you could have had a better life, ruled by God." But we make the same decision they did so many times. Ours only looks slightly different. This inward battle for control is within each of us. Each day we must choose whether we are going to live with God on the throne or ourselves. Who is on the throne of my life today?

I think as I continue to learn how to live as a citizen of the Kingdom of God, this is a new lesson for me to really focus on. In the Kingdom, God is on His throne. He is most glorified when we live that out. We must continue to have a Kingdom focus and a big part of that is having God on the throne, and letting Him be the decider of our lives, letting go of the control we want so badly. But things are so much better when we do this. Life is less stressful, more joyful, and even more exciting when we let it be as it should, with Him on His throne.

I think a part of why this is really important for me right now is because of fundraising. I want to freak out about where our support is going to come from and how in the world we will get to Guatemala around the time we thought God was telling us to go. But I need to let God be on the throne. He will get us there in HIS perfect timing. He won't be a minute late. We don't need to worry about it. We need to faithfully work to ask and make our need known, but not feel responsible to make it happen or make others give. He will give what we need when we need it as we live in His Kingdom.

Our goal was to be fully supported by the end of September. Thats one week from today. We still need $705 in monthly donors but He can make it happen and we believe that He will.


Ephesians 3:20-21
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.