Am I adequate?

A few weeks ago I was thinking about what it is that I am about to do. As well sometimes it just crosses my mind that I am now considered a "missionary", which feel like huge shoes to fill for my little feet. I interact with seasoned missionaries and its so hard to think that I am getting this title with them. I just don't feel adequate for it in the slightest. And sometimes its so overwhelming that I kinda freak out and begin thinking that I can't do this. It feels like too much, too big a task for me. But one night, a few weeks ago, as I was praying about this and just telling God that I couldn't do it, that it was just too much. But then I heard him whisper in my heart, "I didn't ask you to be adequate, but to be willing." It just reminded me that Jesus isn't going to leave me to do these things alone or even in my own strength. But rather in His strength. In 2 Cor. 12:9 Paul talks about how Christ's power is made perfect in us through our weaknesses. It is in my weaknesses that Christ is most glorified. He will give what we need. Like Isaiah in Isaiah 6:8 we must only have the attitude of "Here I am. Send me!"  That is what I want for my life. I don't want to choose to do things just because I think I will be good at them. Rather I want to go where it is that God leads me and trust that He will give me the strength and the power to do those things. 

Last week I got to watch an old movie about Gladys Aylward (the movie was called the Inn of the Sixth Happiness) who was a missionary in China in the early 1900s. Her story was so encouraging. She was denied by mission organizations because they didn't think she would be good in China. So she worked and saved money to just go alone because she knew God was calling her. She ended up doing great things there and God really used her. I was just so encouraged to hear her story and how God uses the ones the world pretty much considers losers.

1 Cor. 1:26-31